Has it really been a week already?

9:50 PM Posted In , 16 Comments »
Well, here we are! We're home and, for the most part, doing very well! I am so grateful that Gabby's surgery was a success and we were able to take her home after only five days! WOW!
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They discharged us on Wednesday and I have never been more happy. Gabby was all smiles once we loaded her into her carseat. She was like "peace out suckas!!"
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After we got home, I felt a little lost in regards to how I was supposed to be caring for her and her incision. They seemed so rushed and I was just so eager to get out of there, that the lack of information didn't seem like a big deal at the time. Really, the only instructions I was given were to not let her swim for three weeks, to avoid picking her up under her arms, and to make sure all of the bandages have fallen off by two weeks post-op. Luckily, I know I should be looking out for signs of infection as well, but it would have been nice to have a print out or something. Oh well.
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Here are some pics of the princess shortly before her discharge. She was soooo happy to have all of her IV's and wires removed.


They took the gauze off and told me this is how her incision will remain until those bandages fall off. It's actually not as gruesome as I thought it would be.

When we got home, Gabby was surprised with a new wagon from her daddy. He must have been reading the blog ;) We weren't sure how much strength she would have but we made the wagon super-soft and let her take it for a spin.




I think she enjoyed it. She actually stayed in the wagon for over two hours. We even went outside and got the mail that was overflowing from our mailbox.


I can't lie...being home has been T.O.U.G.H. I thought we would come home and everything would go a lot smoother than it has. During the day, Gabby is happy and content but when night falls and it is time for bed (which is waaayyyy later than it used to be) she turns into a different child. I can't figure out what is going on but I can tell you it is wearing Nguyen and I out.
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I think I figured that during our hospital stay I slept a total of maybe ten hours. The last two nights at the hospital were rough but I knew Gabs was just so much more alert and had absolutely had it with the nurses and that HARD hospital bed. I was expecting her to fall fast asleep once I laid her in her own crib but NOOOOOO. She throws an absolute fit. She has learned to growl at me and it's getting a little old. Both Wednesday and Thursday night ended with me in tears around 3-4 am because I just could not get her to sleep. I tried everything. She was fed, given pain meds, wearing comfy pajamas, and lulled softly to sleep only to awake suddenly and violently EVERY.SINGLE.TIME I put her down.
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Tonight is a little better but I am not counting my lucky stars yet. I tried the crib twice and that didn't work so after two hours of walking, rocking, and singing, I was able to transfer her into her swing. We'll see how long it lasts. I truly think she is just so traumatized by everything that's gone on...I'm not sure I'll ever get my good sleeper back.
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That being said, last night after my breakdown, Nguyen took over and was able to get her to sleep next to him on a makeshift bed on the floor. I passed out within 8 seconds after handing her off. This morning, feeling fully recharged after five hours of sleep, I went to change Gabs diaper and noticed this:





I watched it for a couple of hours and then decided I should be a little concerned. She had no fever and I was pretty sure it wasn't from the meds because she had been on them all week. I quickly googled my heart out and was convinced it was a heat rash. I called the advice nurse, who then called our doctor, and the told me to "keep my eye on it." About five minutes after I hung up, I decided to ask my doctor-in-training friend and soon-to-be-doctor-in-training friend what they thought. Both suspected it could be an infection and as soon as my friend Kyla saw these pictures, she was pretty sure it looked like Staph. Ugh. So I called back and set up an appointment.
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I left the doctors office with a precription for Bactrim, an antibiotic used to treat Staph infections such as MRSA. The doctor said that since Gabs had such a large incision site, we didn't want to risk the staph getting inside so we were going to treat it as if it were MRSA even though she wasn't sure it was.
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So that's where we are as of today. It is now midnight and I am going to try and get a few hours in on the couch next to Gabby. I'll continue to keep you all updated!
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PS- Thank you Jenny and Kyla for your medical opinions today! ;)

just a cute video...

9:08 PM Posted In , 14 Comments »

I just love Gabby's face during Cam's rendition of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, haha!

Home is just around the corner...

4:25 PM Posted In , 10 Comments »
Guess what!? Gabby is laying next to me, fast asleep, with absolutely NO tubes coming out of her little body!! Ahhhhh. I love it! Guess what else? I got to hold my girl about an hour ago. She was so happy to get out of that bed. I wanted to cuddle on her but she was having none of that...she just wanted to sit up, stare out of her glass windows, and have me slap her back...weirdo.

They took one last xray of her chest today and also did an echo. I haven't heard anything regarding these two things, but everyone around here keeps telling me they're getting us out of here tomorrow. Can you believe it!? I am ECSTATIC!

It's perfect timing too since last night was the night from hell. I had HAD it. Now that I know tonight will be our last night, I know I can hang on. It's almost over.

I just wanted to say thank you to so many of you.

ESPECIALLY my mom, who stayed with me through the weekend and trekked back and forth from the hospital to the hotel. I know it was a pain, but I very much appreciate it.
To my Aunt Leigh who dropped her plans and came to hang with me on her BIRTHDAY, and who brought me the most delicious cookies in the universe. You rock.
To the best Hubby in the world for remaining cool while "out of the loop" thanks to a lack of cell phone reception...love you!
To all of our friends, family, and people I don't even know for calling, texting, emailing, facebooking...I love you guys.

You like my oscar speech?? Haha...no seriously, thank you all! It meant/means so much to me! We are so lucky!!

So tired...

11:15 PM Posted In , 15 Comments »
I am completely and utterly exhausted and soooooo beyond ready to go home. I can only imagine how sweet Gabby must feel. I hope you can excuse my lack of updates. Take it as a good sign though....she is so much more alert and herself, therefore, I have been staying at her bedside trying to entertain her. It's tiring to say the least.

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Yesterday was a good day. She had fewer doses of morphine and when she wasn't completely out of it, we were able to interact with her and I even saw her smile a couple of times. She started eating solids which was a relief. The nurses were hoping to see a bowel movement from the princess but I was convinced her wasn't going to happen without a little...coaxing...and I was right. After a couple of attemps, she still had not "produced," so we left it alone for the night and worked on the issue a little more this morning.

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Today was little more rough because the nurses stopped giving her morphine since it causes constipation, so not only was her belly irritating her, but I am sure she had pain everywhere else as well. Tylenol wasn't cutting it. After a dose of Miralax (which takes 2-4 days, WTH?) and another enema, she finally got a little relief. We saw an immediate change in her attitude and I was so relieved.




This is what the majority of the day looked like...but at least she was super alert and showing us how much strength she had! That was nice to see.



This picture was obviously taken after the birth of the turd. Happy as can be.


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The plan for tomorrow is to remove the catheters from her heart and make sure there is no bleeding as a result. Then the draining tubes can come out and we can move out of the ICU! It'll be a little more uncomfortable since it will be a crowded room with less nursing staff but it's one step closer to going home so i'll take it. Gabby and I are ready!!



feeling better!

10:38 PM Posted In , 16 Comments »
It's 11pm and I feel like today was a good day. Gabby woke up a few times and even did some of her quirky "gabby antics" that I simply adore. Just as I was submitting the last blog entry, mom came running in the waiting room and told me Gabs was awake and they wanted me to try and give her a bottle. She guzzled it down like it was the most amazing thing she had ever tasted! I was so pleased. Look at those bright eyes!


However, things took a scary turn after she finished her bottle. I'm not sure if she was ticked because there wasn't more milk for her or if she was mad that we laid her back down but let me tell you....she was NOT happy. She started thrashing around and trying to scream and her throat was making a terrible, TERRIBLE sound. She was gasping for air and I am not sure I have ever been more scared in my life. The nurse was freaking out and calling for help which was my cue to get the heck out of the room so I didn't have a heart attack. As I stepped out of the room, I heard the nurse yell "WE NEED A DOCTOR!" It was terrifying. I chose to walk out into the waiting room and collect myself. About ten minutes later, mom came and got me and told me everything was fine and she had calmed down. I was so relieved.

The nurses think the milk caused her secretions to thicken up a bit in her throat. This, combined with the swelling for the breathing tube was a bad combo. They ended up suctioning her throat which added insult to injury. She sounded so much better afterwards though...I'm just so relieved they didn't have to put the tube back in. That would have broken my heart.

I snapped a few pics of the machinery just so you all can get a glimpse of what I have to stare at all day long. It actually doesn't look that overwhelming in these pics but being in that tiny room makes it all seem so much scarier.




Look how good she looks! She was sleeping so peacefully so I had to grap a picture!


And here is a quick video of Gabs dreaming...



I forgot to mention- They did take her completely off of the oxygen but her saturation levels went down a bit so they put the canulla back in. No biggie. Also, I just fed her again and it was a way smoother transition this time. The nurse gave her morphine and tylenol before the milk and it made her nice and relaxed so no flip out! Sigh.

Okay, back to the room I go! More tomorrow!

a smallish update...

4:12 PM Posted In , 12 Comments »
Just a quick note-

Gabby is doing well but it is clear that I need to be put on some sort of anxiety medication. My eyes do NOT leave those monitors and every time an alarm sounds I absolutely freak out. It is so not cool.

They removed her catheter and gave her some lasiks (sp?) to get rid of all of the extra fluid in her body. They are getting ready to turn of her blood pressure meds and the nurse suspects that they won't be turning them back on because she has done so well.

She opened her eyes for about fifteen straight minutes today which was wonderful. She wasn't the happy smiling girl I know and love but what can I expect? I was just excited to see her big brown eyes.

Her heart rate has gone down a smidge which was why I was so anxiety ridden over the monitors. I just talked to the nurse though, and she assured me that her levels are totally fine even though they are a tad lower than they were. Huge sigh of relief.

We're gearing up to turn the oxygen off completely and see how she copes. In a way this scares me even though I know she is breathing just fine and will likely continue to do so. It's like the breathing tube was a safety net and now that net is gone...I know, I need to chill.

A little info on Gregory- I overheard one of the nurses explaining to a doctor that he had a little "episode" last night where he stopped breathing (see why I am nervous about the lack of breathing tube?) So anyway...I guess that's the story. His family is here today so I am thrilled he has people that know and love him by his side.

Alright, well that's all for now. More to come!

ahhhh. That's better!

10:49 AM Posted In , 13 Comments »
Look! No more breathing tube! Hooray!

So last night after I updated the blog, I returned to Gabby and the nurse was waaayyyy nicer than she was before. She actually started talking to me and telling me what she was doing which was very much appreciated. I felt confident enough to escape to the parent's "sleeping room" and try and get a little rest. When I returned bright and early this morning I found Gabby like this:



It pretty much made my day! She is on just a tiny bit of oxygen through her nose but other than that she is breathing completely on her own. What a relief. She is a lot more comfortable today and I know that breathing tube was probably her main irritation yesterday. She still grimaces every once in a while but all in all, she is a much happier girl.

There is a baby right next door to Gabby who is just as cute as can be. His name is Gregory and he also has Down syndrome. He also had the same repair done. He also has the same cardiologist we do because he is ALSO from our city! What a coincidence. Anyhow, the ICU rooms are all glass doors so we can see everyone all the time. My mom and I have been watching Gregory through the window since yesterday because he is soooo cute. Yesterday he was playing and doing so well but when I came in this morning I noticed he had a breathing tube and the staff was paying extra close attention to him. I am not sure what happened but I am worried about him. He doesn't have any family here with him so I feel terrible. So, if it's possible, send some T&P's over to Gregory.

Alright so the agenda for the day is to remove Gabby's catheter, start her on some pedialyte and see if she tolerates that. If so, we can start giving her milk again, yay! She'll love that. What else, what else? Oh- They lowered her blood pressure meds and she is tolerating that well. Everything is going smoothly and I pray it continues to go that way.


I'll continue with the updates. Thanks again for all of your love and support from all across the world!! We couldn't do it without you!