worried no more...

10:10 PM 18 Comments »





The past two weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions as I am sure most can imagine. I have been thinking a lot lately about Cameron and what Gabby's diagnosis means for him. I kept wondering how this would effect him in the future. Will he enjoy her like he would if she was "normal?" Will he be able to play with her? Will he want to play with her? Will they be close because of this? All of these questions have been running through my mind and worrying me.






This evening was the first time I let Cameron actually interact with Gabby since he has been sick. It opened my eyes to a whole new world of wonderful. Children are pure and innocent. They know no stereotypes and will not pass judgement...qualities I wish the rest of the world could possess.






Seeing him with her made me realize her diagnosis means nothing to him now and never will. He will never know differently and she will, most likely, make him a better person down the road. How many of us get awkward around people that are "different?" I know I do. Cameron will be the kid that can walk up to those that are "different" and make them feel anything but. I am happy that Gabby was given to us to make us all open our eyes, learn not to judge, and accept everyone for who they are and will become.

Bye Bye Auntie Ashley!

12:37 PM 3 Comments »














Well, the day has come for my friend Ashley to head back to the UK. She came out to be here for Gabby's birth and missed it due to being stuck out in the waiting room :( I still feel badly about that but HEY, at least she was in the same building! She has been such a huge help to me the past couple of weeks with helping look after Cam and Gabby, and just being here to hang with me! I wish we could have spent more time together, but the circumstances sort of sucked. We will miss you bunches! xoxo

Today is a boring, yet productive day. Cameron is at his Grandma and Grandpa's playing, and Gabby and I are cleaning the house and running errands. The weather is finally suitable for walking, thank goodness. We already have been on one walk today and are planning another one after lunch! I feel so much better when I get out of the house. I am really dying to start exercising but the doctors recommend waiting six weeks. I definitely don't feel like I just had a baby so it's hard to believe I need to wait that long, but I will. I am ready to say goodbye to the belly! I am down about twenty pounds and have about 15 to go. Okay, off to make myself and Gabby some lunch! ;)









lazy Friday

12:24 PM 9 Comments »
We woke up this morning to grey clouds and non-scorching weather which is actually nice, but it made for a killer case of the lazies. My BFF spent the night last night so she could help me with Cameron this morning since Gabby had her first doctors appointment. I actually got a really good nights sleep due to my doctor telling me I didn't have to wake up Gabby in the middle of the night to feed. I actually freaked out after six hours of un-interrupted sleep and got up and fed her anyhow. She is such a good girl :)


So we headed off to Kaiser and had our visit. She is doing well although she hasn't gained as much weight as they would like to normally see. SO, I am back to waking her in the middle of the night and now I have to feed her every two hours instead of three. Holy moly...if I thought I was tired before, I really have it coming.



We are home now, after a trip to the donut shop and Starbucks. Once again, everyone is back in lazy mode. I was able to clean up my house a bit which feels lovely. Cam zonked out watching a choo choo movie and Ash and Gabbs are enjoying a Sex and the City marathon. Today is a good day. I will be sad for Ash to go home, BUT my dad will be here next week so that'll be a great help! I have lots of things for him to do around here, haha! Hear that dad?! I'm putting you to work! Don't worry....nothing too labor intensive :)

I got out of the house today!

6:40 PM 5 Comments »

But guess where I went? To starbucks (okay so this was pretty cool, I love me some starbucks) but I also went to my most favorite place of all- THE GROCERY STORE. (I am so being sarcastic) I despise the grocery store but Nguyen and I are so sick of fast food and eating doritos for dinner, I knew something HAD to be done. So off I ventured with my newborn while cam napped with grandma and grandpa.




I almost drove over to borders to pick up a book I ordered but I was on a time constraint. Cameron is suffering from separation anxiety like no other and if he wakes up and I am not there, all hell breaks loose. SO, my trip to borders had to wait for another day.
We finally had a home cooked meal and a healthy-ish one at that! Stir fry with rice! I feel pretty proud of myself for doing laundry, getting out of the house, AND making dinner! Go me!
Thursday, May 22 (I'm combining posts)
Nguyen is now feverish but still going to work...he can never take a day off apparently. Oh well...soon we won't be the "sick house." It's another windy day today. I don't get this weather at all. I am still dying to just get out and take a walk but it's impossible with the wind. So, stuck in the house is where we'll be today.
Hopefully Ashley, Tiffany, and Jenny will be coming over to hang out tonight! I am excited. I could use some adult interaction!

The results are in...

12:38 PM 17 Comments »
The doctor called me today to inform me of Gabby's results, and as expected it IS Trisomy 21. The good news is that the type of Trisomy she has does not reflect that Nguyen or I are carriers for Down Syndrome. So...LET THE APPOINTMENTS BEGIN! I already am pretty booked up this week and some of next week.



Cameron was doing great yesterday and acting like he feels a ton better. However, last night he spiked again with a 102 fever. This will be day four of this junk and we're over it! So, when Gabby's doctor asked me how Cam was doing today and I told her that, she said she would make an appointment for him. So, today he get's to go to his most favorite place ever...NOT! Nguyen has to take him alone so it should be interesting, haha.


Other than being competely exhausted, we are all doing great. I really wish we could go on a walk or something to get out of the house but it's either too hot or just the right temperature but way too windy! And until Mr. Cameron get's better, we aren't going anywhere in the car as a family because their carseats are right next to eachother. Oh well...he should be better soon!!

WOW, I'm tired...

3:11 PM 10 Comments »





She's home! We get her around 4pm yesterday and she is SUCH a good girl. I have heard her cry one time since she has been home and it was pretty weak! I had to set my alarm to wake up and feed her because she would have slept right through the night had I let her!

It's been super tough today trying to keep Cam away and explain that he is sick and we can't let the baby catch his cooties. He was so excited when he saw me bring her out of my room today. He cannot get enough of her! He wants to do EVERYTHING with his "baby Gabby sister." He wants to feed her, hold her, change her diaper, take her outside, take her to the car wash and have her play choo choo's but he settles with her just "watching" him play choo choo's instead.
Cam is feeling better but still running a slight fever. He is so much more active today. Yesterday I don't think he walked more than five steps, he was so weak. Poor guy. I am glad to see him feeling better but still very nervous about Gabby and germs. I have purell all over the house and my hands are getting raw from washing so much! The stress of all of this is making me slightly depressed...I wish I could just relax and enjoy her but nothing comes easy I suppose.

as luck would have it...

2:12 AM 8 Comments »
Well I was sooo excited about Gabby coming home this weekend and now I am just a nervous wreck. Nguyen's parents have not been feeling well and Nguyen kept telling me they were just "exhausted." Well, come to find out they are both suffering from some type of cold virus (probably the flu) and guess who woke up at midnight with a 102 degree fever? Ughh. Cam is sick. He is tossing and turning in my bed as we speak. I feel so bad for him and even worse that I can't cuddle him. :( I am so scared I will get it and then Gabby could potentially get it. The cardiologist was just telling me how it is great that I didn't deliver during flu season because of her heart issues. She has an increased chance of developing pneumonia. Ackkk! Now what?

All I can do is attack my house with lysol and quarantine myself and baby until everyone is healthy again. How depressing. Anyway, that's my vent for the day. On a positive note, we visited the princess and she is doing great on room air! No tubes, no tape, and she is even in a regular bassinette instead of that baby hospital bed thing.

Oh yeah, and I did end up getting Cam a new pool WITH a slide and he was so happy all day! It was hotter than you know what today so it was nice for him to cool off and have some fun! I feel like all we have been doing is trekking him back and forth from the hospital. He needed some fun time!





ps- don't forget to read Nguyen's post below...didn't want everyone to think this was the only new one! :)
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